Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Precisely! but moving on for me has been quite a journey....painful journey i should put it. Here, ive listed down the journey ive been thru when i was in my 20s till now n it is something not to be proud of i guess but to give u a better picture of d agony my poor heart has been subjected to.....not in a chronological order but to d order what my brain can remember n my heart can feel....ready?? Here it goes.....

1. With a Boyanese guy called Rosli when i was in poly...fair n quite handsome..but he drinks.Ever sat with him n his friends with bottles of Stout on d table n watched him drink. One day he told me that his mum wanted him to settle down before she went off to Haj so he was in dilemma. He decided to take a short break, apparently on a vacation to Malaysia but later I found out he was all along with d woman he supposed to be married...yeah he got married to her eventually after dumping me. Saw he once on d street with his kids...thin n unhappy..oh well!
2. With a Chinese fella, Bernard...tall n with sharp features for a Chinese. Went out for a while n he dislikes Ah Lian but settled with one when he was tired of me.
3. With a Malaysian guy, my uncle's fren, but mum thought we were still too young back then n he was not with a stable job...so we parted.
4. Got to know a guy from d airport...from d commando unit..who had been giving me a lot of attention but i realised later that he was a married man with a kid. duh!
5. Another guy who approached me on a train..worked as an airport police..he was Sikh...Dave was his name.He wanted so much to be serious...went out n talked a lot on d phone.Borrowed some cash from me n never to be seen again. Damn fella!
6. A tall Malay guy who was introduced to me by a fren...bought me 12 roses on Valentine's Day n delivered to me to my house.Confessed to me later that he only treated me like a younger sister. How insulting!
7. A colleague from MPH introduced her bro, Azman, to me. Went out for a while.....stood me up on my birthday one day coz he was caught due to drugs. Of all days huh!
8. A bogus pilot n a big liar with empty promises was trying to trap me but i dumped him. it was good.
9. A fren intro an Indian-Muslim guy who happened to be so sticky to me...i couldnt even haf a proper lunch coz he kept calling. When i left him, he complained to my fren n put all d blame on me. So be it!
10. A German guy, Salaam Amir, whom i met online had shown his seriousness to me. Flew down a couple of times to meet me. Took him around Singapore but he took off when i mentioned marriage after being together for 2 years. Oh he only wanted a cheperone when he was in Singapore....n he was 43.
11. A Sindhi fella, Deepak, who was with me for 4 years...d longest so far from d rest but only took a few seconds to say it was all over. Always giving excuses that he was busy n forgetful of certain important issues but he claimed that he was happy with me. Never told his parents abt me, lied to me that he was out of town but he wasnt....hate to break up with me coz didnt want to be d culprit so I started it since he wa sjuz stalling time.
12. Got to know a teacher, intro from an ex colleague, and he brought me home to meet his parents. I got scrutinised from tip to toe as if their son was really perfect n eventually he dumped me on a Valentine's night when we were expected to meet for dinner n i had been waiting for him to fetch me for 4 hours at my fren's hostel at NIE. Smsed me that he wasnt interested anymore..well..his mum had someone for him actually n i was juz a spare.
13. My sis fren intro a Malay fella who fetched me from my hostel on our first date. He wasnt concentrating on his driving n was trying to entertain me by monkeying around..duh...not my type so i left him.
14. My cousin intro a guy whose mother was looking around for a potential wife for him. Went for our date at Almiran's Cafe...he hardly talked n i was so chatty...might as well talked to d wall. Meal was over, no move to pay d bill so i called d waiter...still no move to pay so i paid n that was d first n last meal wif him. No chemistry.
15. A fella called Razak was interested in me but he was juz unsure how to go about pleasing a woman..so...one day..he lost contact with me but came back out of d blue...married wif a teacher n having kids. Started to sms me, telling me all d latest development on him like buying a new car, having new baby, getting a new condo..bla bla bla..wassup with that huh???I told him off n we r out of contact again.
16. Now with a current one whom is also unsure of me n everything in his life.

Oh gosh..juz look at d list....i've moved on right...juz to get broken hearted again n again. Yeah...right now i really need the chill pill to freeze my heart. If this heart is not meant to pump blood around my body, i will definitely have it removed entirely!!